我不完美。

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect and I can't be.
World went crashing when I realized my flaws were not accepted again.
I just want you to be more responsible in every thing you do.
And not just achieving your goals.
Didn't we agree?
You said you wouldn't be selfish anymore, you wouldn't be blinded by your goals and totally forget about me.
But there you go again.
I know sometimes, or most of the times, I'm a bitch.
I know you won't accept me for who I am.
I am tired as well.
I really really want someone who will put me as their priority.
And you know what? You will never be the one.
Yes, I'm dumb because the reason to why you will never be is just because you do things slowly even thou you know I hate it.
And what's worse? You won't change for me.
Yes, I'm selfish. I want both friends and you to be with me.
Which girl doesn't want?
You're different, you're totally opposite.
You feel totally okay when you're without me.

Because of small little things, there goes our dinner together.
Dang!
You won't bother because you're totally alright even if we don't go on a date for 21509478 days.
Maybe someday, because of small little things, there goes our relationship.

And when I cry now, you no longer feel anything.
Yes I was complaining and you see no reason to why should I cry.
Because it hurts every single thing I say about you, every single bad point of you.
Because every single bad point of you hurts me, and I know you wouldn't change.
After all, I'm not important enough to make any changes to you.

You were never with me whenever I feel so down because of my family/friend.
You were never the one whom I share my little secrets or sadness with.
You were never with me to go through my down times because I'm not important enough for you to sacrifice your sleep just because of me.
When I need you, you will never be there for me...
You know so little about me. Just all the surface.
I feel so lousy.

May things get better, I'm sick and tired of how useless I am to you.
Or maybe, how fail I am as a girlf, but not as a groupmate.

Beginning to hate you...
You won't feel a single shit.